for the longest time i haven't had the chance to write here because things really have been that crazy. for a long time i didn't have any job. then i got one working for a pizza place. the hours were awful and the management was worse. i never saw alissa and i never had a free moment. then i got another (better) offer and was going to keep both but the manager i talked to and had cleared it with decided suddenly he changed his mind, so i had to quit or i'd be fired the next morning for not showing up. so i now have a job, and have since mid-march. i work as a teacher assistant at a school for students with intellectual disabilities. the thing is, i never set out to be a teacher or to work in special education; both of which just so happen to be the family business on my mom's side of the family. and even though i don't think this place is the best fit for me, its funny how some things seem to be inside you that need no nourishing. our families give us good things that we are blessed with, and bad things that we must fight against our whole lives. the pull of genetics is strong and mysterious.

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